I'm Angry Enough to Change Myself

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Tuesday, December 04, 2007

Day 16: Nothing Changed Much

I've been encouraged by two visitors to this blog, who, clearly, might come back if I updated often enough.

There are no lies here--just the blatant truth!

It's been some fifteen days, and I haven't made much progress. I guess at the back of my mind, I am looking forwards to the squash and basketball I shall be playing at Elmina Beach Resort in the tourist-like Central Region of the country next week, when the whole organisation goes for its annual retreat.

That's when I'm going to come back invigorated--and ready to ruuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuumble!;-)

Let me just say this: it's been a while since I did sit-ups or press-ups. I am going to start that tomorrow, with a view to hitting the exercise bike...and then some. Been using for too long the excuse that I get up a bit later than usual, therefore leaving me little time to exercise!

What tosh!

Gotta get more serious! Be here tomw for a status report!

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Monday, November 19, 2007

I Guess I Wasn't Angry Enough!: Month One, Day 1 Re-Dux

It has been a while. Much water has passed under the bridge--and through my system.

I went to the doctor last week--Thursday 15 November--which is a year, 2 months and 15 days later only to have gone, according to the doctor's (electronic) scales, up to 111.4kg. This was strange, because I had been weighing myself (and tracking by way of a chart), and I was definitely less than 110kg. I had managed to go down to 105 kg at the beginning of the year, and had predicted going down to 100kg by June this year.

Alas, it wasn't to be. Apart from sporadic illnesses, I got complacent--and I'm pretty much back to square one.

I guess the import of all this is the blatant honesty I think I need to get my weight down.

I think it's important to keep it simple now. I don't need a gym. The folks purchased a few months ago equipment (arms, whatnot) that is much more than a gym for the home. So if I'm still this weight, it's down to ME. They exercise quite regularly, and I'm always making excuses.

Maybe I'mnot cut out for exercises. Maybe I am.

What I do know is that I grew hopelessly lazy, and took advantage of the rain to say that I would exercise later.

I know better now. I'm necessarily taking a laid-back approach to this weight loss, whilst contemporraneously getting serious about it.

Immediate STOPS:
  • no late-night nibbling before bed

  • no walking and eating!
  • (I like my cashews after a day's work!)

    TO DO (plenty more!!)
  • Take my dog for brisk walks at night

  • Walk more briskly

  • wake up at 5 am to exercise

  • resume sit-ups / pressups

  • drink at least 3 litres of water every day

  • eat everything in moderation!

    Let's start with that and get back to see how far I've gone.

    It starts today--and right now!!

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  • Wednesday, August 15, 2007

    Sometimes it feels like this! : Month 12: Day 15

    Yeah. It's been a while. I was supposed to be here at the beginning of August, but I got to cleaning clutter around my desk, and at home instead. Either way, technically speaking, it's Month 11, but I suppose people have justifiably not been following. Oh well, things will pick up.

    My scales started going wonky on me this morning. It looked like I had droppe half a kilo or so, and wanted to weigh a few more times to get the average. Regrettably, the scales stopped at "40" after I had stepped down!

    Quadruple ouch and all that!

    Thankfully, I'm a whisker away from payday, so I'll have to budget it. Pooh. Oh well. Better to be monitoring my weight for the price of some $2.30 scale, than fooling myself into thinking I am losing!!

    A very necessary sacrifice--unless by some miracle, the scales decide to work...

    I'm currently at 106.5kg. Regrettably went up and down, and sometimes more up than down:-(

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    Friday, April 20, 2007

    Month 8, Day 20: Turning Thirty, Losing the Weight

    I turn thirty in some six days. Just learnt that a relative--a contemporary of mine--was hit by a car last night. He must have been around my age Possibly one or two years older than me.

    All this goes to compound the importance of seeking to improve oneself whilst I am alive.

    I am glad to say that I have lost FIVE kilos in three months, which should mean if I carry on this way, I should lose FIVE more kilos by June, and be the cynosure of many a woman's eye;-)) Even though I have and want Sandra, it doesn't mean other women can't look at me;-))

    My formula since January has been PLENTY of cider vinegar, hot water, which I have been having since I developed a bad cough in December/In fact, I noticed that I was feeling a bit less stocky some hours before the New Year, and felt it was a positive development for the year.

    I have not been disappointed. I am sad to say that, indeed, my PROPER exercising has fallen because of the laziness associated with this type of weight loss. I have been wallking almost a kilometre a day, so that's something.


    The battle to combat fat, and become the slimmest possible continues! I recently -- this week in fact -- bought a tub of choco pasta, which I have taken almost a few days to almost-finish! Ouch!!

    Best not get complacent!!

    BTW, I am


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    Wednesday, November 08, 2006

    Month 3, Day 8: You've Got to Check Out This Woman...Cheese!!!

    ...but first, please allow me to introduce you to the blog of a very sexy, Black American student in her final year. This is the link to her blog: http://jenellybean.blogspot.com/. Coincidentally, her blog is called "Trials and Tribulations of Jenelley Bean". Check out her post on "Oh How I Miss Blogging", and find for yourself a picture of someone who was 40 pounds (circa 20kgs) heavier in January, and now in October, [9 months later], she's evidently, 40 pounds lighter, and effing sexier!!! SO that's on average 40/9, or 4.5 pounds, or 2kg a month?


    Progress report:

    I did 20 stretches; 1km (exercise) bike ride [I love it when I begin to see the sweat start to form on my hirsute body, and arms]; 40 sit-ups.

    Still at 110kg:-( Ofcourse, I had had tea, almost a litre of water, and had just come out of the bathroom...before I weighed myself.

    On and on we go...BTW,


    : The cheese I have been having is this side of PROCESSED cheese! That could be the culprit!!

    but please check out her blog, and my comments:

    Delaleuverses said...

    Wow, I must say congratulations on your weight loss, keep up the good work. I really would like to know how you did it, diet eating plan, etc. Please do e-mail me.

    Great blog...I will come back again to read some more.

    Sun Oct 29, 03:43:45 PM

    Emmanuel.K.Bensah II said...

    jenelleybean, I NEED to eml you, or better still here's my eml: ekbensah at yahoo.co.uk.

    Among many of my other blogs, I serendipitously came across your blog whilst checking my tracker on my blog "Trials and Tribulations of a Freshly-Arrived Denizen" )http://ekbensahinghana.blogspot.com.

    I have another blog called "Angry Enough to Change Myself"(http://angryenoughtochange.blogspot.com, where I occasionally chronicle my tribulations of losing weight. SInce I started in September, I've lost two kilos and put it back on:-(( Bad dieting, I know. I have been exercising regularly: walk with my dog; bike ride equivalent of 1km on average three days a week, etc. Still, nothing. My latest post (yesterday) got me REALLY angry to do something more radical about losing weight.

    I REALLY would appreciate your help.

    BTW, how long did it take for you to lose that 40pounds (circa 20kg)?. I'm in month three and though I have been told I am gaining muscle from the exercise and it weighs more and all that, I NEED to start losing more! STrike that: I need to start LOSING!!

    Let's hear from you on either of my blogs and/or eml, please...thanks!

    PS--you did FANTASTICALLY! and you look SOOOOOOO sexy. Those white guys are just being hypocritical!! If I might add, you looked sexy when you were heavy, too!;-))

    Wed Nov 08, 05:16:55 AM

    Tuesday, November 07, 2006

    Month 3, Day 7: Progress? Don't Bank on it:-(

    I'm angry. But enough to change? More like disappointed. Sad. Confused. I have a sneaky suspicion I am doing something wrong, but cannot put my finger on it.

    So I had a bad eating habits last week. Big deal. It happens to the best of us. After all that burger was not something I was eating every day.

    Ok, maybe, [I'm getting flashes of an epiphanous nature...] it's the fried rice and chicken, and eating out on about three occasions that I have done..ok...that probably explains it.

    Ouch and ouch.

    I have been doing my regular exercise. You know the formula: skipping; bike ride; fenix-walking; whatever else; stretches, and I'm experiencings ome serious pain in my legs. To the extent that I was reluctant to continue that exercise.

    But something struck a chord: it wasn't just Mum telling me last week that my exercises are slacking, but buttressed by bank manager whom I went to see about a matter this afternoon. SHe somehow managed to find the time to tell me that "you're putting on weight". I told her calmly that I was doing something about it; she told me to "try harder", and then she recommended swimming.

    I re-call that that's something Steph had mentioned on this blog earlier, but I didn't consider it--for purely pecuniary reasons. I am not prepared to roam town looking for a swimming pool; I wanna wait for the A&C Shopping mall to get its construction finished so I can be lazy and go to it instead, seeing it;s only some ten minutes drive from my workplace!

    In the meantime, seeing as life is about choice, I am choosing not to put on any more weight; to cut down DRASTICALLY all that sugar (I'm getting epiphanous sensations that it's also a lot to do with that and possibly the cheese I am including with my breakfast) Tomatoes are fine, but cheese every day possibly is a huge


    I want to end the year at at least 105kg.
    I want to end the year at at least 105kg.
    I NEED to end the year at 100kg
    I NEED to end the year at 100kg
    I need to lose MORE weight
    I NEED to drink more water
    I need to eat LESS sugar

    AM I a contradictory bastard? Yeah, cos I cannot even decide what weight I want to be at?

    Tell me!

    100kg. Can you do it?

    I will try!

    Not good enough!

    Can I do it?


    WHat am I?

    ANGRY !

    What am I?


    What am I?


    (i'm hungry).